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Danni Colello
my blog will show you the mind of a young developing writer.
"There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you." Maya Angelou
my blog will show you the mind of a young developing writer.
This blog post is about my narrative project. Which is about the time I had to make the biggest 911 call of my life. Connecting to the blog post are these three videos from Mr.Manginis English composition class. From the classic film, the Wizard of OZ.Wizard of Oz: If I Only Had The Brain, Heart, Nerve , Wizard of Oz: Meeting the Wizard, Wizard of Oz: You've Always Had the Power. My narrative allows me to travel into my brain because I remember thinking that I had to do something I didn’t know what, but something needed to happen that night. I was completely in fight or flight mode and although flight was my usual go to, I knew I needed to fight that night. Years later I now am able to see how brave and courageous I was as a child which is even more out of left field because I had no friends and was always picked on growing up. How had I had this confidence and strength against a grown man when I couldn’t even stand up for myself to come children on the jungle gym. My narrative allows me to explore my heart from back then because the scene I am composing is from a very emotionally evoking time of my life, I am able to feel the fear and anger and the adrenaline comes rushing back from this night. Now I can depict from it that it was the absolute most pivotal moment in my entire life, and I feel empathy slightly for a man who was supposed to be my father but had so many mental problems and was such an intense addict he couldn’t ever step up to the plate. I also feel resentment looking back toward my mother, she was the adult she was the one who was supposed to protect me. Why at 5 and 7 and 12 years old did I have to protect her. My narrative meets the nerve element by showing you how much pent up abuse had been involved how this was the braking point after years and years. Living and growing up with an addict is very confusing. You joke around with them about something one second and the next you’re a bad person for repeating what they just said. You’re taught to tell people if it’s not safe at home, but you also learn “don’t tell anyone about daddy or you might lose mommy”. Even when You do tell a few teachers in your elementary school about “daddy” nothing ever comes of it and you learn that no one really wants to help, but you also learn to reach out for help if you need it, right. My narrative enables me to re-examine the power I have in my life’s story because at the time I felt so helpless and scared and I was just acting on pure instinct. Authoring the story from my point of view has helped me realize that I truly was in control in that moment. I held the power to end the suffering that I had prayed would end one day. I thought as a child that I always needed someone to come into my life and “save me” but I really held the power all along. I realize I have more control of my life than I think I do at times. We cannot control what happens to us in life; only how we react to it. For this reason, I would say that what shapes us is the “stories” we tell our self, or how we react.
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Francis
2/26/2019 06:42:13 pm
Dan,
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Angelina
2/27/2019 06:05:15 pm
I love how you related it to Dorthy, you had the power all along. This is inspiring, thank you for sharing your story
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shaymaa
3/3/2019 05:09:28 am
your story is well told Danni..you are a brave girl
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Sabatino
3/3/2019 07:29:50 am
Thank you for sharing thoughtful insights into your composing of the memoir. Would you say this reflection explores themes of isolation and loss-of-home (in terms of security and comfort)? I notice you mention "empathy" for your father. Empathy is one area of revision I will share with the class...let's talk about in more during our conference. Let's also discuss this:
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